As I'm writing my journal, so that Liesbeth can soon edit it into a novel, my everyday living experiences seem to shift from one reality into another. It's like that with others too, but not many are aware of it. When I asked those in my decoding classes if they could relate to the 5 different awareness levels I have documented so far, it became clear to me what POWaH meant when he said:

"The capacity to doubt is one of the greatest blessings given to man. It triggers the creative observer to question the human mind and to activate our intuitive mind in order to know the difference between what is real, and what is a reality created by the player."

When I asked why doubt is a blessing (since I do a lot of questioning and don't always feel it is in my own interest), his reply was:

"Men must not look outside of themselves for what is real, but look within as to the cause of the doubt. When you focus on externals, people often get caught up in judgments."

Hearing those words made me realise that I've often been guilty of judging - like this is good, this is bad, I want this but I don't want that. Those thoughts and opinions keep us trapped in our illusions, our old habits and behaviour patterns.
Then POWAH replied to my thoughts by saying:

"Don't misunderstand the word illusion. Illusion does not exist, reality exists"

I was thrown off my pedestal. Wasn't my whole existence just ephemeral, made of the same stuff our dreams are made of? His replied was:

"The trees in your garden are for real, your home is for real, only in the ultimate sense, when the space between your two eyes are opened, from the peak of your illumination, your day to day experience will become unreal, illusory. Then you have moved beyond illusion."

For my mortal mind to grasp the wisdom beyond those words, I needed to create some sort of reality scale. I came up with five realities to help me find where I'm coming from when I'm acting out of my EGO state.

• (1 ) The real world - Our minds can not conceive it except sometimes in our dreams or meditations, when we move out of time. This world is eternal. Only our no-mind is truly intelligent, original, revolutionary, radical. A world where we are trained to become co-creators.
• (2) The reality of the 3rd dimension - What we think we create. Where our thoughts are, we are. Our data collecting mind is in some sort of stupor, burdened by memories of the past, or our projections of the future. In this world the Soul that is in embodiment must crucify or transform the persona. In this reality must we awaken to a resurrection of our innocence (our true self), so we can become the child again, reborn.
• (3) The world our collective egos create - It's mostly a state of being in Denial of our true self. We run away from past hurts in order to 'fit in'. Man's character is like armour; his protection, his security. We always react to situations through our persona, never directly. If we have been asked a question, our answer is often more a reaction to the question. (Most of humanity live in that world.)
• (4) A world that is created by a global mind that is greatly damaged and hurt by reflecting that back. We can now only survive if our mind goes into fantasy. Because our life energy has been depleted in our efforts to keep fueling the enormous need for self-importance and productivity, we have forgotten how to rest. We either live in world of the future, ignoring the past unless it supports the present fantasy, or we run away from everything that is not good by remembering past experiences. In that world our thoughts create a reality that is even more deceptive. We can't see things clearly and we can only relate to what has happened from what was in our past. There is no future in that, unless we create a fantasy one. Both are illusions.
• (5) Both denial and fantasy merged into one. Feelings like suspicion, lies, deceit, fear of being killed physically, mentally and emotionally are a day-to-day experience in this reality. We have given up all our own power and vision in return for being accepted by the very same forces that have imprisoned us. We are looking for an outlet to release our tensions and stresses that have been building up inside. We now live in a world of insanity where madness is acceptable, while meditation is not. Only a wake-up call will show us where we are - in prison. (This is a awareness level that Richard so well describes in his journal The CosmicTraveler)
  
  When I read over the five reality levels I realised that I can flip from one into another at the drop of a hat, if I'm NOT contemplating, meditating or at least in my observation mode.
  
  Where do I think our world is residing or headed for? Many businesses today make money on the fear endemic in this last reality.
  
  I've made an intent to not ever again get trapped into the last four realities. I don't want to wait for catastrophes to happen, but rather to strive through staying in my second reality with the intent to move into the first reality. In this world I can be receptive to allow my soul qualities of compassion, intuition and sensitivity to shine forth; where I can dissolveor transmute all the obstacles that keep us separate from each other and from the whole.
  
  We are supreme beings that contain all the wisdom, while playing the human game, but in the process we have lost our connection to that wisdom. Should we now not altogether transform at least the last three realities into the second, in order for our soul purpose to awaken to the knowing that we can have it ALL. back Into the first original reality.
  
  Namasté
  Annelies