During the seventies I had my (I call it major) one and only psychic experience with 'another entity' that appeared separate from me. Not that I understood any of it. I had no idea what just happened to me on that particular Monday morning. I had never heard of the term 'channeling', and I'm not even sure today what happend to me. I suspect that during that morning my mind must have been swiched off, so to speak, and my conscious awareness interacted with my intuitive higher self. That is how I interpret it now.
I experienced hearing a voice. Not telepathically, no, the voice was as clear as if the person that spoke was standing next to me in the living room. I recall jumping from my chair (with a cigarette in my hand) shouting “Who are you? Where are you?” while looking behind the curtains. When I found that there was nobody in the house, I felt rather silly. Had I just imagined this voice? As a child I had been very intuitive about people’s agenda that rarely matched their spoken words, but that knowing got me into such trouble I blocked those impressions in order to fit in.
I was alone in the house, smoking my first cigarette of the day, a bit shaken from my 'imaginary experience' but when the voice continued, this time I listened. I often replied, challenging the voice, and I received a rather stern reply back (which freaked me out since I immediately knew that my mind was being read ) In those days I was very ignorant about any 'new age' or psychic phenomena information. Even the word reincarnation was new to me. My family background and upbringing was totally devoid of any esoteric or new age concepts, but as a child I knew I was different, for I often used to challenge adults on topics that were out of bounds.
My need to educate myself on esoteric or new age concepts became almost an obsession, just from that one personal experience. Nobody in my family believed me, or understood what I had experienced, but one thing I did act on. I stopped smoking from that moment, and have never smoked since. Often during the following years a kind of loneliness would set in, not being able to talk to anyone about what went on in my mind, but I somehow knew that this time I could not come out in the open with what I was often aware of. (The memories of traumatic past lives due to exposing an awareness level that was misunderstood, was enough for me to keep it to myself)
As I said, I will keep my one encounter short,
so I will not go into detail about what I was told, and what I was guided
to do, but the result was that I started writing the visions down that were
cramming my head. I started keeping a journal. I experienced what astral traveling
was all about, and a lot more memories awakened in me over a period of twenty
years.
Then when my son purchased his first PC in the late eighties I learned to
type using a word processor. My new passion (to write) took me away from many
other activities, which started to have a great effect on my life as
a wife, mother and business woman, so I needed to make a choice. Do I follow
my Soul Purpose, or do I ignore it, let it be and stay as the Hermien
everyone knew?
I made the final break away from Hermien in 2000. I took on the name Nadine
May (May being my second name) got divorced after 33 years and moved
away from Port Elizabeth. I have no need to include more about me personally,
and if anyone wants to know, its partly written in the back of my novels.
In 2001 my first manuscript found a home. Robin from Kima Global Publishers wanted to try his hand at Fiction. My Love We Are Going Home was born. In 2002 I become known as Nadia, when Robin and I become partners in his already established publishing business. I tried my hand at typesetting for his company and practiced on my first workbook The Language of Light and gradually took over the creative book cover work for the new Kima Global titles. I tried my hand at creating e-books and my second novel Orphanage of Soulmates came into print in 2003. As well as being the webmaster of www.kimaglobal.co.za and managing my own web site www.ascension-workshop.co.za my job as Nadia has become a full time occupation.
As Nadia I am now the creative director of Kima Global and interact with each new author, shaping their manuscript into a novel. Since then both Robin and I have added two more websites under our wing. www.clovellywisdomcave.com and www.bodymindspirit.co.za
Last year I started to rewrite my first novel. It needed it. In 2007 The Awakening Clan replaced the first novel, and this year Orphanage of Soulmates has been rewritten and expanded, now in two volumes due to the size of the book. The Astral Explorer and The Cosmic Traveller clearly reflect the visions and dreams I had filed away for so many years. Only now do I start to understand what the words really meant so many years ago; what my Soul Purpose was.
When you know that you are on the right path, or rather, having manifested the direction that you were meant to experience before you were born, that in itself gives a tremedous boost to your inner self worth. It also means that 'on a daily basis' you are reminded of the truth - which is that your reality is your creation. You are within your self created mental hologram. The closest people that interact with you have chosen a similar vibration, or energy signature. That is why they are in your space; in your reality.
When I was awakened to that idea, I then also knew how to change my reality and the people in it. The hologram idea has many facets. Some facets or parts of our hologram are closer to the reflection of the movie that we were shown before we were born than other facets or parts. Keeping that idea in mind, it inspired me to write about the decoding of each person's 22 spacings on their hologram grid pattern. I had to 'mentally' re-awaken the truth behind the origin of creation. There are many ways to do this, but for me individually this appraoch became the foundation for the Ascension card game played by the characters in my novels. Richard in his journals takes readers on an inter-dimensional journey in order to prepare them for the interplay that takes place in their own Initiation card game - on the first level of the Ascension game.
In Vanishing Worlds - Annelies' journal my task is to take the Jaarsma's awakening plot further. Now, as the author as well as the character Annelies has to awaken to the knowing what it would be like, if our time zone comes to an end; meaning that our hologram program, kept in suspension by the illusion of TIME, starts to fade away. While the decoding exercises come to life in Annelies' journal, she also has to clear up her own distortions that are coming to light through her own decoding methods. Through comunicating with the genetic intelligence of the human form, she uncoveres how the distortions in the human createn were further corupted by an unseen force.
When I was first shown (like a movie script) the visuals of an awareness level that was already part of me, at that moment I had no idea what I was being shown; no idea that one day I would be able to bring this instant vision into the open through story telling. Me of all people! Who was I that I was given this task? Did it come purely a through my own fantasies, my own mental fabrications? Had my passion for creating something of note, been influenced by an illlusionary project so ambitious that it would take me years to accomplish? Was my ego so stimulated by this whole mission because it wanted to prove to others that the awakening series could be for real?
I have been told that these questions will only be
revealed at the end of my project. On the last page of the journal that
would reflect the fifth level of the awakening prosess, only then would
my own ascension process truly start....
